What It Feels Like

Maggie Townsend is great on her own.A senior at the University of Washington, living with her best friend, and managing her obsessive-compulsive disorder better than she has in years, things are finally . . . good.Sure, she has no clue what she wants to do with her life, has been single for longer than she cares to admit, and just watched her little sister get engaged—but it’s fine. Everything is fine.So when her OCD starts spiking again, she blames it on the fact that graduation is fast approaching, she has a wedding to help plan, and that she suddenly can’t seem to stop running into the cute guy that she hasn’t seen since high school, everywhere. She tries to be the person everyone expects her to be and do what she always does: put a smile on her face and handle it.She’ll show up every time, hoping no one notices the tapping on her leg, or the bags under her eyes, or the way she wonders what would happen if her thoughts get too loud. But when her grip on everything she’s worked so hard to stabilize starts to slip and the precariously balanced tower of her life starts to tilt—she wonders if she’s going to find out. Read more